Dearest Ones. May this find you well and filled with the Light of Wisdom and Compassion!
I am indeed back from India and returned to the Annapolis area just yesterday, so I am still unpacking and acclimating which includes arranging for phone service, mail etc... Being "home" has filled me with so much gratitude, especially for those who I love and who love me! The latter part has taken me years to realize and the gifts, the welcome and the support has been incredible. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for all that you have done through packages, through letters, gifts and love and prayers!
Regarding PRIVATE SESSIONS; at this time, I am suspending this as I am traveling much this summer, have 3 retreats scheduled as well as other work which I have subcontracted. I will let you know in the fall how this shapes out!
RETREAT.
I can't wait to see you on FRIDAY, JUNE 12TH (7 - 9 p.m.) and SATURDAY, JUNE 13th, ( 9 a.m. - 4 p.m.)
Friday night is the opening and invocation and will include of course, chanting: Yeah.
For Saturday, we'll be eating lunch together (bring your own!) and we'll have water and tea for you. Please keep it light. When doing deep work, you don't want to have your body competing with your mind for attention! As you go in, heavy food brings you out! Wear comfortable clothes and bring a meditation cushion if you'd like. Friends Meeting House is lovely and we do have chairs available for you!
In the Upanishads, and in prayers repeated often by Mahatma Gandhi, it is written: "Lord, lead me from the unreal to the real. From the False to the True. And from Death to Immortality." What do these words really mean? What is real and how does one MOVE from the unreal to the real? This is what we'll explore together simply in our gathering. It will be a simple and deeply contemplative experience and I am deeply grateful for the opportunity to join you and to share with you some of the gifts of India related to this theme.
Please note that I can be reached now only through this email address until further notice! That's at nellie.lauth@gmail.com which I will check regularly. Of course I cannot counsel anyone or give advise through the internet and I know that you will honor this and not try to send issues to me that I cannot respond to! Thank you for this consideration.
with Love and Gratitude Always, Nellie
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Friday, May 29, 2009
May 29, 2009-- Back in the USA
Just a note to Nellie's Blog followers, Nellie is back in the USA! She will be seeing clients, so watch for blog post on that information. Also, don't forget the teaching 12-13 Jun in Annapolis. See blog entry below.
Thursday, May 7, 2009
May 7, 2009-- Coming Home
Hello, Dear Friends,
It seems that I have been remiss and have not been in touch; forgive me! I have been closing out this year with the nuns I am officially finished with teaching as our academic year is over and the next few weeks are just exams and self study! I have time to meditate and read - in fact, many nuns and monks leave for the summer and will be gone before I am so there will be lots of time for practice - hope I take advantage of it! The last week, instead of traveling, I'll go into retreat to prepare to come home. AND to stay home.
Just this past week, I felt that it was time for me to return to my life and work in the states. I will not be returning in the fall to India as planned and here at the nunnery, the process of saying goodbye is in full swing and is hard. The nuns had a tea to thank 2 other lamas for their work and for me just the other day - the leaving became official. Wow. It seems that I have been here forever and just arrived.
For me and for my own healing process, I think Nepal sealed the deal! Much happened that is impossible to describe in words in terms of the interior - the realm of the mind. The searching and struggle to find God, the Truth, that I have been on for 40 years seemed to culminate there, in Kathmandu, and so many memories, meditations, insights, struggles and questions came together for me, as if something woven like a blanket, was completed and the threads all formed an understanding deep, deep, - someplace deep within.
I am looking forward to coming home but also hope I am able to maintain the simplicity that this nunnery has allowed me to experience as a lifestyle. How do I thank all these nuns and the staff? How can I ever let them know the Gift of being here? The generosity and kindnesses - where do I begin? One ani, Sangay, came to my room and asked if I was not coming back and was so sad. She will be here all summer; we have time before I leave to say good-bye and find the Gift of knowing that our connection is beyond space and time - this is my wish and my hope as I leave my friends and this family....
I have the retreat in mid-June in Annapolis and in late June in Jacksonville and then in Oklahoma in August and I know these three gatherings witll give me the opportunity to articulate some of these experiences - the struggles and the insights form the fabric of this weaving! May it keep us all warm! And then, the Path will unfold as it always does, with Grace.
Many time over this past 8 months I have remembered that we are like children sleeping and dreaming terrible dreams and Compassion is the Mother who is holding us as we sleep until we gently awaken.
Much love to you all. What a REUNION we will have! Nellie
It seems that I have been remiss and have not been in touch; forgive me! I have been closing out this year with the nuns I am officially finished with teaching as our academic year is over and the next few weeks are just exams and self study! I have time to meditate and read - in fact, many nuns and monks leave for the summer and will be gone before I am so there will be lots of time for practice - hope I take advantage of it! The last week, instead of traveling, I'll go into retreat to prepare to come home. AND to stay home.
Just this past week, I felt that it was time for me to return to my life and work in the states. I will not be returning in the fall to India as planned and here at the nunnery, the process of saying goodbye is in full swing and is hard. The nuns had a tea to thank 2 other lamas for their work and for me just the other day - the leaving became official. Wow. It seems that I have been here forever and just arrived.
For me and for my own healing process, I think Nepal sealed the deal! Much happened that is impossible to describe in words in terms of the interior - the realm of the mind. The searching and struggle to find God, the Truth, that I have been on for 40 years seemed to culminate there, in Kathmandu, and so many memories, meditations, insights, struggles and questions came together for me, as if something woven like a blanket, was completed and the threads all formed an understanding deep, deep, - someplace deep within.
I am looking forward to coming home but also hope I am able to maintain the simplicity that this nunnery has allowed me to experience as a lifestyle. How do I thank all these nuns and the staff? How can I ever let them know the Gift of being here? The generosity and kindnesses - where do I begin? One ani, Sangay, came to my room and asked if I was not coming back and was so sad. She will be here all summer; we have time before I leave to say good-bye and find the Gift of knowing that our connection is beyond space and time - this is my wish and my hope as I leave my friends and this family....
I have the retreat in mid-June in Annapolis and in late June in Jacksonville and then in Oklahoma in August and I know these three gatherings witll give me the opportunity to articulate some of these experiences - the struggles and the insights form the fabric of this weaving! May it keep us all warm! And then, the Path will unfold as it always does, with Grace.
Many time over this past 8 months I have remembered that we are like children sleeping and dreaming terrible dreams and Compassion is the Mother who is holding us as we sleep until we gently awaken.
Much love to you all. What a REUNION we will have! Nellie
Saturday, May 2, 2009
May 1, 2009-- Happy May Day
Just a quick reminder of the upcoming event with Nellie is still scheduled:
SAVE THE DATE
and save yourself from the INSANITY of fear!!
GOING FOR BROKE
How to remember ABUNDANT JOY in a crashing market
FRIDAY June 12 7 - 9 pm
SATURDAY June 13 9 - 4 pm
Annapolis, MDFriends Meeting House
351 Dubois Rd., Annapolis, MD 21401, USA
(From Rt. 50, exit at Rowe Blvd./Bestgate Rd and turn left at the light on Bestgate. After one long block, turn right at the light before the Catholic Church. Then take the first left at Dubois and go to the end of the street . Despite what Mapquest or Google Maps display, the meeting house is at the end of the street.)
My Dear Friends, please come and join me as we contemplate what the message is in times like this in which fear and catastrophic thoughts are bombarding us every day. The Dalai Lama was very clear that despite the massive suffering Chairman Mao rained down upon the Tibetans, that he was his friend. His Holiness said many times that the Chinese are my friends, for they give me an object for my practice of Compassion.
So it is with us; this economic "downturn" is simply an opportunity for each of us to walk the walk and to live as if we know that the Truth about ourselves is never threatened. Jesus said simply, in the Course, "NOTHING REAL CAN BE THREATENED. NOTHING UNREAL EXISTS. HEREIN LIES THE PEACE OF GOD." Period.
We will gather and I will have the great Joy of sharing my experiences of India with you and to share this time gathering all of our resources that we stabilize our little ego minds as a mother takes a child by the hand and leads her away from a dangerous edge of fear. It is that simple. The Truth doesn't fluctuate as the market does!! The value of COMPASSION doesn't rise and fall as the dollar does!
And your own self-worth cannot change; ever. This is what we have waited for - to be put to the test. This time, we will chose to love and to forgive and to be at peace!
"Why do you worry about what to wear or how to feed yourselves? Consider the lilies of the field." Please consider joining us. Please consider your own state of mind and the approach you want to make and the attitude you want to cultivate at this time and allow this decision to become a great Light for those around you and in this world that cries out for comfort. Let us consider the Path of Joy, now and always
with Love, Nellie
SAVE THE DATE
and save yourself from the INSANITY of fear!!
GOING FOR BROKE
How to remember ABUNDANT JOY in a crashing market
FRIDAY June 12 7 - 9 pm
SATURDAY June 13 9 - 4 pm
Annapolis, MDFriends Meeting House
351 Dubois Rd., Annapolis, MD 21401, USA
(From Rt. 50, exit at Rowe Blvd./Bestgate Rd and turn left at the light on Bestgate. After one long block, turn right at the light before the Catholic Church. Then take the first left at Dubois and go to the end of the street . Despite what Mapquest or Google Maps display, the meeting house is at the end of the street.)
My Dear Friends, please come and join me as we contemplate what the message is in times like this in which fear and catastrophic thoughts are bombarding us every day. The Dalai Lama was very clear that despite the massive suffering Chairman Mao rained down upon the Tibetans, that he was his friend. His Holiness said many times that the Chinese are my friends, for they give me an object for my practice of Compassion.
So it is with us; this economic "downturn" is simply an opportunity for each of us to walk the walk and to live as if we know that the Truth about ourselves is never threatened. Jesus said simply, in the Course, "NOTHING REAL CAN BE THREATENED. NOTHING UNREAL EXISTS. HEREIN LIES THE PEACE OF GOD." Period.
We will gather and I will have the great Joy of sharing my experiences of India with you and to share this time gathering all of our resources that we stabilize our little ego minds as a mother takes a child by the hand and leads her away from a dangerous edge of fear. It is that simple. The Truth doesn't fluctuate as the market does!! The value of COMPASSION doesn't rise and fall as the dollar does!
And your own self-worth cannot change; ever. This is what we have waited for - to be put to the test. This time, we will chose to love and to forgive and to be at peace!
"Why do you worry about what to wear or how to feed yourselves? Consider the lilies of the field." Please consider joining us. Please consider your own state of mind and the approach you want to make and the attitude you want to cultivate at this time and allow this decision to become a great Light for those around you and in this world that cries out for comfort. Let us consider the Path of Joy, now and always
with Love, Nellie
Thursday, April 9, 2009
One of Those Days--April 9, 2009
We had a few days of storms with a good drenching of rain, which left the skies unusually clear as far as we can see. I took a walk after my 7:15 class, to a village called Rajpur, behind us and across the river bed that runs from the hills. It's a good hike, up and down and over rocky ground and I was following an Indian man who like many here is simply wearing his flip flops and traversing the ground without the benefit of such things like Nikes and special pants and outfits, as we Westerners are so fond of! I watched him on this one steep part of the path down to the river and was amazed! We have special shoes for hiking and running and walking and here, like with the nuns and monks, flip flops do for everything. I was so humbled!
The Nepalese women who work on the wallls being built are wearing the colorful shalwar kameez as I think I told you and I am blown away, over and over, by this simplicity!
I have been to Nepal and stayed in Boudnath, in Kathmandu, the site of the very famous and iconic stupa that I am sure many of you have seen. My visa requires that I leave India every six months and this is the easiest and quickest trek across the border. With the Himalayas alongside the left side of the jet on approach, I was able to see the highest mountains in the world, snow covered, majestic and so powerful. We had cloud cover all the way until just alongside this great view!
The very next morning, and I mean 3 a.m., there was a special puja (prayers) at the monastery where I was staying. Shechen Guest House is a part of the Shechen Monastery founded by the great Dilgo Khyentse Rinpoche, who was both student and teacher to the Dalai Lama. He died some years ago, and three years later, his incarnation was found (now about 18 years old) - known as Dilgo Khyentse Yangtse - and he was leading these very powerful prayers in the temple. I walked across the courtyard at about 3:30 am and the lama at the temple door immediately began to question me! He asked, very forcefully, "Where did you come from?" !!! I said, probably equally as forcefully, Shechen monastery! He then asked, "Do you know what's going on? Why are you here?" And I answered that I was there for the empowerment with Dilgo Khyentse! Well, I passed and was allowed in with few other westerners to this great opportunity in this very powerful environment. All day we had puja and I took wonderful photos - and by the way - the lama at the door, Lama Padma - well, we became friends a day later when he led us on a tour to the home of Chatral RInpoche. This is the lama that the Catholic monk, Thomas Merton, met in 1968 and lives in the valley of Parphing (spelling might be off here!) We went just to bring offerings - he doesn't see many these days, and what a great trip - how auspicious! Our bus was stopped on the road due to an accident- and we had to walk across the valley floor! I was carrying a sack of tsampa and incense and tea in my backpack and it was a ball. And, it was a beautiful valley. After our visit and stopping for tea, (of course, this is India, afterall!) we visited great meditation caves and had a great local lunch. Lama Padma was a blast and I loved visiting him and telling the others of our first "meeting" at the door to the temple.
I am back in my simple routine! Up before breakfast at six and my first class which is at 7:15. Then, I walked the path to Rajpur I mentioned above for a "spot of tea" at the best tea shop! I had a cup of coffee, which is made Indian style with mile and sugar and is just great - not very strong - it's Nescafe instant!
I send to you all, all my love and look so forward to seeing you in June! and July! and August! Then, back to India for another season with these nuns, who I love. Some I call my daughters and they are opening affectionate with hugs and we laugh a lot - yes, my big laugh is something for them to behold!
Blessings - Nellie
The Nepalese women who work on the wallls being built are wearing the colorful shalwar kameez as I think I told you and I am blown away, over and over, by this simplicity!
I have been to Nepal and stayed in Boudnath, in Kathmandu, the site of the very famous and iconic stupa that I am sure many of you have seen. My visa requires that I leave India every six months and this is the easiest and quickest trek across the border. With the Himalayas alongside the left side of the jet on approach, I was able to see the highest mountains in the world, snow covered, majestic and so powerful. We had cloud cover all the way until just alongside this great view!
The very next morning, and I mean 3 a.m., there was a special puja (prayers) at the monastery where I was staying. Shechen Guest House is a part of the Shechen Monastery founded by the great Dilgo Khyentse Rinpoche, who was both student and teacher to the Dalai Lama. He died some years ago, and three years later, his incarnation was found (now about 18 years old) - known as Dilgo Khyentse Yangtse - and he was leading these very powerful prayers in the temple. I walked across the courtyard at about 3:30 am and the lama at the temple door immediately began to question me! He asked, very forcefully, "Where did you come from?" !!! I said, probably equally as forcefully, Shechen monastery! He then asked, "Do you know what's going on? Why are you here?" And I answered that I was there for the empowerment with Dilgo Khyentse! Well, I passed and was allowed in with few other westerners to this great opportunity in this very powerful environment. All day we had puja and I took wonderful photos - and by the way - the lama at the door, Lama Padma - well, we became friends a day later when he led us on a tour to the home of Chatral RInpoche. This is the lama that the Catholic monk, Thomas Merton, met in 1968 and lives in the valley of Parphing (spelling might be off here!) We went just to bring offerings - he doesn't see many these days, and what a great trip - how auspicious! Our bus was stopped on the road due to an accident- and we had to walk across the valley floor! I was carrying a sack of tsampa and incense and tea in my backpack and it was a ball. And, it was a beautiful valley. After our visit and stopping for tea, (of course, this is India, afterall!) we visited great meditation caves and had a great local lunch. Lama Padma was a blast and I loved visiting him and telling the others of our first "meeting" at the door to the temple.
I am back in my simple routine! Up before breakfast at six and my first class which is at 7:15. Then, I walked the path to Rajpur I mentioned above for a "spot of tea" at the best tea shop! I had a cup of coffee, which is made Indian style with mile and sugar and is just great - not very strong - it's Nescafe instant!
I send to you all, all my love and look so forward to seeing you in June! and July! and August! Then, back to India for another season with these nuns, who I love. Some I call my daughters and they are opening affectionate with hugs and we laugh a lot - yes, my big laugh is something for them to behold!
Blessings - Nellie
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Nellie from Kathmandu-- March 28, 2009
Hello Dear Friends. I am sitting in a small cafe and looking out the front door to the Great Stupa in Kathmandu. Actually, this village is Boudnath. I arrived yesterday afternoon after harrowing and long travel in India. First the train from Delhi which left at 11:30 p.m. and the sleeper birth which was a small cot in an "alcove" with three strangers. It took me a few moments to sort out my attitude and then, going with the flow I rested but didn't sleep much! The conductor got me a chai when we stopped at Hardiwar, so that didn't help, but who can refuse such an offer? Then, hours of waiting, and off we went.
On the plane, sitting on the left side, emergency exit, as we approached Kathmandu, the very heavy cloud cover opened up to reveal the great treasure of the Himalayas. There was Everest and there the range was in all her majesty until we descended through the mountainous valleys that is Nepal.I am staying in a monastery that was founded by the great Dilgo Khyentse Rinpoche who was a teacher and student of the Dalai Lama. He founded Shechen monastery, which includes this sweet and very peaceful guesthouse which abounds with Westerners; the most I have seen since I departed the U.S.
I went to sleep early after a meal that was delicious in this also lovely little vegetarian restaurant of the guest house and woke up for a 3 a.m. prayer practice and empowerment with Khyentse Yangse, who is the reimcarnation of Dilgo Khyentse Rinpoche, the founder. I sat in the back of the temple with the little lamas and other Nepalese! I just love making faces in between my meditations at them and watch their smiles! The Kam Geko, who is the disciplinarian and who walks through making sure everyone is being good, didn't catch me! .
What is it about this place? I can hardly say. It is not different from my Catholic upbringing, in that there is much prayer and ritual attached to Buddhism. There is great devotion and watching the many people now passing in front of me with their malas, reciting Om Mani Padme Hung, the mantra of compassion, as the beads slide between their fingers quickly and constantly is not different for me than a trip I made in the 80's to Mejugorje in Croatia and the many Rosaries pilgrims pray there for the same intention; to alleviate suffering and to find peace.
I will stay at Shechen for another night, and then to the Lotus Guest House tomorrow for 3 nights before I depart for my home away from home, Dehradun and the nuns of Samten Ling Nunnery. I don't know by what Grace all of this has unfolded, but I only know that what I experience day by day, is deep Joy, gratitude and contentment. The journey has been worthwhile, and I don't just mean India. I am speaking of the journey of my life. The most difficult and powerful healing for me was absolutely the past year prior to my departure and the process of filing Chapter 7 and letting go of everything I own except for the suitcase I brought here.
I faced my life and my self and I think I learned how little we know of the richness of who we are when we judge our experiences as good and bad, seeking to get what we want and avoid what we are afraid of. The truth of our lives is that every experience is a door unlocking something hidden in the mind. I had already decided to give everything away before I put the house on the market! But the key for me which I think I have already shared was the process of forgiving myself everything and everyone else for everything in my life! Through that year, I felt very much as the prodigal daughter, who returned to the Father with nothing of the world, but was given a feast instead. I learned to simply accept myself in a deep and profound way, and to love myself as I am. What a gift. And of course, it led here, to India, where I was always headed anyway! Some of you knew I was coming here before I did!
You cannot do anything to change the truth of who you are. Nothing. No-thing can change that. So losing those "things" is nothing! So, here with nothing I have everything, and peace.
"Don't be afraid of non-being," said Rumi. "If you want to be afraid, be afraid of the life you have now." Rumi was a lover of God., a devotee of Love Itself. When the economy seems to threaten your reality, remember that the Truth, what is Real, cannot be threatened. Ever. The "real" world is beyond the conception of the mind and beyond the conception of thought, but we are swimming in it all the time! We are dreaming our lives. Let's awaken.
I look out to the light that shines on this stupa and people from all over the world, circumabulating the stupa and stepping in and out of these little shops meet my eyes and sometimes our hands, folded in front of our hearts, communicates Namaskar- God be with you.
On the plane, sitting on the left side, emergency exit, as we approached Kathmandu, the very heavy cloud cover opened up to reveal the great treasure of the Himalayas. There was Everest and there the range was in all her majesty until we descended through the mountainous valleys that is Nepal.I am staying in a monastery that was founded by the great Dilgo Khyentse Rinpoche who was a teacher and student of the Dalai Lama. He founded Shechen monastery, which includes this sweet and very peaceful guesthouse which abounds with Westerners; the most I have seen since I departed the U.S.
I went to sleep early after a meal that was delicious in this also lovely little vegetarian restaurant of the guest house and woke up for a 3 a.m. prayer practice and empowerment with Khyentse Yangse, who is the reimcarnation of Dilgo Khyentse Rinpoche, the founder. I sat in the back of the temple with the little lamas and other Nepalese! I just love making faces in between my meditations at them and watch their smiles! The Kam Geko, who is the disciplinarian and who walks through making sure everyone is being good, didn't catch me! .
What is it about this place? I can hardly say. It is not different from my Catholic upbringing, in that there is much prayer and ritual attached to Buddhism. There is great devotion and watching the many people now passing in front of me with their malas, reciting Om Mani Padme Hung, the mantra of compassion, as the beads slide between their fingers quickly and constantly is not different for me than a trip I made in the 80's to Mejugorje in Croatia and the many Rosaries pilgrims pray there for the same intention; to alleviate suffering and to find peace.
I will stay at Shechen for another night, and then to the Lotus Guest House tomorrow for 3 nights before I depart for my home away from home, Dehradun and the nuns of Samten Ling Nunnery. I don't know by what Grace all of this has unfolded, but I only know that what I experience day by day, is deep Joy, gratitude and contentment. The journey has been worthwhile, and I don't just mean India. I am speaking of the journey of my life. The most difficult and powerful healing for me was absolutely the past year prior to my departure and the process of filing Chapter 7 and letting go of everything I own except for the suitcase I brought here.
I faced my life and my self and I think I learned how little we know of the richness of who we are when we judge our experiences as good and bad, seeking to get what we want and avoid what we are afraid of. The truth of our lives is that every experience is a door unlocking something hidden in the mind. I had already decided to give everything away before I put the house on the market! But the key for me which I think I have already shared was the process of forgiving myself everything and everyone else for everything in my life! Through that year, I felt very much as the prodigal daughter, who returned to the Father with nothing of the world, but was given a feast instead. I learned to simply accept myself in a deep and profound way, and to love myself as I am. What a gift. And of course, it led here, to India, where I was always headed anyway! Some of you knew I was coming here before I did!
You cannot do anything to change the truth of who you are. Nothing. No-thing can change that. So losing those "things" is nothing! So, here with nothing I have everything, and peace.
"Don't be afraid of non-being," said Rumi. "If you want to be afraid, be afraid of the life you have now." Rumi was a lover of God., a devotee of Love Itself. When the economy seems to threaten your reality, remember that the Truth, what is Real, cannot be threatened. Ever. The "real" world is beyond the conception of the mind and beyond the conception of thought, but we are swimming in it all the time! We are dreaming our lives. Let's awaken.
I look out to the light that shines on this stupa and people from all over the world, circumabulating the stupa and stepping in and out of these little shops meet my eyes and sometimes our hands, folded in front of our hearts, communicates Namaskar- God be with you.
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Trip to Nepal-- March 26, 2009
Tonight, at 11:30, I leave for the airport in Delhi. I am taking the train from Dehradun and a friend from the U.S is on the same train, which makes it a little simpler! I fly out of Delhi at noon tomorrow and will be in Kathmandu at around 2 pm! I am staying for at least 2 nights at Shechen Monastery in a town just outside of Kathmandu called Boudnath (spelling?) You can google it! It's quite nice - this monastery was started by the great Dilgo Khyentse Rinpoche who has been a teacher of the Dalai Lama and is known as a great Dzogchen Master - in Buddhism, these are the highests teachings and understandings - known as the Great Seal, they are the experience of the Unity of all Truths - these teachings transcend all concepts, dogmas, forms, rituals, and other demarcations that we make with our little minds! Whenever you think of Kathmandu you will be shown a picture of the Great Stupa with the prayer flags waving in the breeze - that is where I'll be!
BTW, just before Thomas Merton's death, he himself met a "who's who" of Dzogchen masters and knew that these teachers had found, as Christ, that "peace that passes all understanding" and wanted to study with one in particular. He said, the truth is beyond the concept of God and dharmakaya! - that is, it cannot be understood, but Known and is always true! It doesn't fluctuate with markets and relationships and moods! nor with sickness and health! This Love, this Compassion always IS and is the "suchness" - the substance of reality.
I have only a small backpack with a few changes of clothes! The lightest I ever packed and it seems that I keep letting go, letting go! Even of my hair! Got a haircut yesterday by a Muslim barber, outside the Tibetan colony, with a few Hindu men watching! It cost rps 15 - pennies! Quite short and cute and EASY!!!
I have learned to make sure the details are attended to here in India - God IS in the details! I have a taxi to meet my train in Delhi and transport me to the airport; the monastery has a taxi to meet my plane on the Nepal side and the return is also accounted for! It eases the mind, but this doesn't mean, by any means, that there won't be surprises! Ah, India - what is hidden in the West abounds here -
So, I'll keep you posted. I have my camera and look forward to this retreat. Maybe Dilgo Rinpoche (founder I spoke about) will reveal some of his secrets! Who knows??? You are my family and friends and you have been with me and I take you now on this next trek!
With great LOVE, Nellie
BTW, just before Thomas Merton's death, he himself met a "who's who" of Dzogchen masters and knew that these teachers had found, as Christ, that "peace that passes all understanding" and wanted to study with one in particular. He said, the truth is beyond the concept of God and dharmakaya! - that is, it cannot be understood, but Known and is always true! It doesn't fluctuate with markets and relationships and moods! nor with sickness and health! This Love, this Compassion always IS and is the "suchness" - the substance of reality.
I have only a small backpack with a few changes of clothes! The lightest I ever packed and it seems that I keep letting go, letting go! Even of my hair! Got a haircut yesterday by a Muslim barber, outside the Tibetan colony, with a few Hindu men watching! It cost rps 15 - pennies! Quite short and cute and EASY!!!
I have learned to make sure the details are attended to here in India - God IS in the details! I have a taxi to meet my train in Delhi and transport me to the airport; the monastery has a taxi to meet my plane on the Nepal side and the return is also accounted for! It eases the mind, but this doesn't mean, by any means, that there won't be surprises! Ah, India - what is hidden in the West abounds here -
So, I'll keep you posted. I have my camera and look forward to this retreat. Maybe Dilgo Rinpoche (founder I spoke about) will reveal some of his secrets! Who knows??? You are my family and friends and you have been with me and I take you now on this next trek!
With great LOVE, Nellie
Monday, March 16, 2009
Notes from India- March 16, 2009
I'm writing this from the Tibetan colony at Dikyiling, down the road from us. I walk here after our afternoon tea, since we already are in the spring time, which means much warmer days - hot to walk in mid-day for me! The young man who runs this shop is playing some very western music on his computer - a little hip hop. And from behind me is coming many mani prayers from the auditorium. which means many people are saying OM MANI PADME HUNG the mantra of Chenrezig and Compassion! I love it; east meets west; secular and profound!
Yesterday I went to the Bazaar with one of our nuns who was my bargainer and translator, helping me to purchase a mattress! We walked behind the monastery through the fields, past the little mandir (little temple - tomb of a saint) and down the steep path to the river and up again to the village of Rajpur. From there we caught a four-wheeled open "cab" I think called a bikram and headed to Dehradun! After stopping for a latte we then made our way into the Palden Bazaar which I personally think is a hell-realm that I avoid intensely! However, it was Sunday and quieter and by the time we got to the little shop, it still wasn't crowded and jammed by half and Ani started to do her thing. She called the proprieter "uncle" as the Indians do and they went at it, loudly going back and forth prices in rupees until an agreed price! I laughed and talked to another man who turned out to the be the owner across the way! He clearly wanted me to pay more! For about 8 American dollars, I got a cotton stuffed, soft mattress and kicked the terribly hard as a rock, musty smelling one out of the porch. I carried the mattress (like a futon) on my head as is the Indian way and had a blast walking through the market as people looked in awe at the big, white, westerner with the mattress on her head and when they'd catch my eye, smiling, I'd yell, "Jai India!" Muslim men, Hindi women, Christians, Buddhist monks and nuns, all haggling in the market place! What a cacophony of sounds and languages and playing at living our lives in diversity and yet, together.....We had a great lunch and after returning I laid down, deeply contented with this purchase. Simplicity.
To clean my 'house' and everything I own, might take a whole hour and a half! I wash clothes in a big bucket and hang them on the nun's hostel to dry, usually at night so that they only need a little sun exposure in the day to dry and I can bring them in by noon! My whole room was cleaned and the sheets spread on my bed and I felt as snug as a bug in a rug, as they say!
Our 2 day puja (prayers) on the anniversary commemorating the great Tibetan Yogi Milarepa and his teacher, Marpa, was earlier this week, March 10 and 11th. I was so grateful to be the only lay person in our hall with our nuns and the other Geylas, the Tibetan lamas who teach our nuns Tibetan, Buddhist philosophy and debate. Tuesday and Wednesday, we began at 8 am and ended around 6 pm with breaks for tea and lunch. It was very helpful to me to sit in meditation for such long periods and strengthens my daily practice; In regards to the holiday, to honor this, lights are strung from the temples and an atmosphere pervaded the monastery of reverence and a quiet Joy. The full moon competed with red lights dangling from the big hall and temple and the white lights that circumambulated the Kalachakra Temple and which guided us that night as we walked around and around, chanting quietly the mantra of Milarepa! Je Mila Sherpa dorje la solwa deb swaha! The lights represent offerings - electrical butter lamps to the Yogi and his Guru and was soft and sweet. Adding to this is the powerfully sweet scent from the citrus trees that was like incense or perfume - lovely.
I thought of my friends and family; of all of you. You walked with me then and do so now until I see you this summer back in Maryland or in Jacksonville, or South Carolina, Miami and Oklahoma! I will be leading 2 other retreats, besides the one in Maryland; in Jacksonville in late July and in Oklahoma, in August. I will send dates if you need in the next email. In all these gatherings, we will celebrate together, and this great privilege of being alive and in these times that seem to be degenerative, we will generate Hope, Compassion and Joy.
Lord, lead me from the unreal to the Real. From death to Immortality. From the false to the Truth. From chaos to beauty.
These words from the Upanishads were prayers the Gandhi-ji particularly loved and in his interdenominational prayer meetings would recite this! May it be so....Let's be led.....
Nellie
Yesterday I went to the Bazaar with one of our nuns who was my bargainer and translator, helping me to purchase a mattress! We walked behind the monastery through the fields, past the little mandir (little temple - tomb of a saint) and down the steep path to the river and up again to the village of Rajpur. From there we caught a four-wheeled open "cab" I think called a bikram and headed to Dehradun! After stopping for a latte we then made our way into the Palden Bazaar which I personally think is a hell-realm that I avoid intensely! However, it was Sunday and quieter and by the time we got to the little shop, it still wasn't crowded and jammed by half and Ani started to do her thing. She called the proprieter "uncle" as the Indians do and they went at it, loudly going back and forth prices in rupees until an agreed price! I laughed and talked to another man who turned out to the be the owner across the way! He clearly wanted me to pay more! For about 8 American dollars, I got a cotton stuffed, soft mattress and kicked the terribly hard as a rock, musty smelling one out of the porch. I carried the mattress (like a futon) on my head as is the Indian way and had a blast walking through the market as people looked in awe at the big, white, westerner with the mattress on her head and when they'd catch my eye, smiling, I'd yell, "Jai India!" Muslim men, Hindi women, Christians, Buddhist monks and nuns, all haggling in the market place! What a cacophony of sounds and languages and playing at living our lives in diversity and yet, together.....We had a great lunch and after returning I laid down, deeply contented with this purchase. Simplicity.
To clean my 'house' and everything I own, might take a whole hour and a half! I wash clothes in a big bucket and hang them on the nun's hostel to dry, usually at night so that they only need a little sun exposure in the day to dry and I can bring them in by noon! My whole room was cleaned and the sheets spread on my bed and I felt as snug as a bug in a rug, as they say!
Our 2 day puja (prayers) on the anniversary commemorating the great Tibetan Yogi Milarepa and his teacher, Marpa, was earlier this week, March 10 and 11th. I was so grateful to be the only lay person in our hall with our nuns and the other Geylas, the Tibetan lamas who teach our nuns Tibetan, Buddhist philosophy and debate. Tuesday and Wednesday, we began at 8 am and ended around 6 pm with breaks for tea and lunch. It was very helpful to me to sit in meditation for such long periods and strengthens my daily practice; In regards to the holiday, to honor this, lights are strung from the temples and an atmosphere pervaded the monastery of reverence and a quiet Joy. The full moon competed with red lights dangling from the big hall and temple and the white lights that circumambulated the Kalachakra Temple and which guided us that night as we walked around and around, chanting quietly the mantra of Milarepa! Je Mila Sherpa dorje la solwa deb swaha! The lights represent offerings - electrical butter lamps to the Yogi and his Guru and was soft and sweet. Adding to this is the powerfully sweet scent from the citrus trees that was like incense or perfume - lovely.
I thought of my friends and family; of all of you. You walked with me then and do so now until I see you this summer back in Maryland or in Jacksonville, or South Carolina, Miami and Oklahoma! I will be leading 2 other retreats, besides the one in Maryland; in Jacksonville in late July and in Oklahoma, in August. I will send dates if you need in the next email. In all these gatherings, we will celebrate together, and this great privilege of being alive and in these times that seem to be degenerative, we will generate Hope, Compassion and Joy.
Lord, lead me from the unreal to the Real. From death to Immortality. From the false to the Truth. From chaos to beauty.
These words from the Upanishads were prayers the Gandhi-ji particularly loved and in his interdenominational prayer meetings would recite this! May it be so....Let's be led.....
Nellie
Monday, March 9, 2009
Save the Date--Talk in Annapolis, MD
SAVE THE DATE
and save yourself from the INSANITY of fear!!
GOING FOR BROKE
How to remember ABUNDANT JOY in a crashing market
FRIDAY June 12, 2009 7 - 9 pm
SATURDAY June 13, 2009 9 - 4 pm
Annapolis, MD
Friends Meeting House
351 Dubois Rd., Annapolis, MD 21401, USA
(From Rt. 50, exit at Rowe Blvd./Bestgate Rd and turn left at the light on Bestgate. After one long block, turn right at the light before the Catholic Church. Then take the first left at Dubois and go to the end of the street . Despite what Mapquest or Google Maps display, the meeting house is at the end of the street.)
My Dear Friends, please come and join me as we contemplate what the message is in times like this in which fear and catastrophic thoughts are bombarding us every day. The Dalai Lama was very clear that despite the massive suffering Chairman Mao rained down upon the Tibetans, that he was his friend. His Holiness said many times that the Chinese are my friends, for they give me an object for my practice of Compassion.
So it is with us; this economic "downturn" is simply an opportunity for each of us to walk the walk and to live as if we know that the Truth about ourselves is never threatened. Jesus said simply, in the Course, "NOTHING REAL CAN BE THREATENED. NOTHING UNREAL EXISTS. HEREIN LIES THE PEACE OF GOD." Period.
We will gather and I will have the great Joy of sharing my experiences of India with you and to share this time gathering all of our resources that we stabilize our little ego minds as a mother takes a child by the hand and leads her away from a dangerous edge of fear. It is that simple. The Truth doesn't fluctuate as the market does!! The value of COMPASSION doesn't rise and fall as the dollar does!
And your own self-worth cannot change; ever. This is what we have waited for - to be put to the test. This time, we will chose to love and to forgive and to be at peace!
"Why do you worry about what to wear or how to feed yourselves? Consider the lilies of the field." Please consider joining us. Please consider your own state of mind and the approach you want to make and the attitude you want to cultivate at this time and allow this decision to become a great Light for those around you and in this world that cries out for comfort. Let us consider the Path of Joy, now and always
with Love, Nellie
and save yourself from the INSANITY of fear!!
GOING FOR BROKE
How to remember ABUNDANT JOY in a crashing market
FRIDAY June 12, 2009 7 - 9 pm
SATURDAY June 13, 2009 9 - 4 pm
Annapolis, MD
Friends Meeting House
351 Dubois Rd., Annapolis, MD 21401, USA
(From Rt. 50, exit at Rowe Blvd./Bestgate Rd and turn left at the light on Bestgate. After one long block, turn right at the light before the Catholic Church. Then take the first left at Dubois and go to the end of the street . Despite what Mapquest or Google Maps display, the meeting house is at the end of the street.)
My Dear Friends, please come and join me as we contemplate what the message is in times like this in which fear and catastrophic thoughts are bombarding us every day. The Dalai Lama was very clear that despite the massive suffering Chairman Mao rained down upon the Tibetans, that he was his friend. His Holiness said many times that the Chinese are my friends, for they give me an object for my practice of Compassion.
So it is with us; this economic "downturn" is simply an opportunity for each of us to walk the walk and to live as if we know that the Truth about ourselves is never threatened. Jesus said simply, in the Course, "NOTHING REAL CAN BE THREATENED. NOTHING UNREAL EXISTS. HEREIN LIES THE PEACE OF GOD." Period.
We will gather and I will have the great Joy of sharing my experiences of India with you and to share this time gathering all of our resources that we stabilize our little ego minds as a mother takes a child by the hand and leads her away from a dangerous edge of fear. It is that simple. The Truth doesn't fluctuate as the market does!! The value of COMPASSION doesn't rise and fall as the dollar does!
And your own self-worth cannot change; ever. This is what we have waited for - to be put to the test. This time, we will chose to love and to forgive and to be at peace!
"Why do you worry about what to wear or how to feed yourselves? Consider the lilies of the field." Please consider joining us. Please consider your own state of mind and the approach you want to make and the attitude you want to cultivate at this time and allow this decision to become a great Light for those around you and in this world that cries out for comfort. Let us consider the Path of Joy, now and always
with Love, Nellie
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
February 23, 2009 Tibetan New Year
Hi My friends. Tomorrow is Losar, the Tibetan New Year. We are in solidarity with those in China who in protest did not want to acknowledge the new year with the traditional celebrations, but are being forced by the Chinese to do so. We will gather, then, in prayer without the festivities and traditional dance. Even though, there is a feeling of newness; the nuns have been cleaning each room, the temples and the kitchen and the grounds are swept clean and fresh today.
Last week, there was a special puja (prayers) where the monks and nuns read all the teachings of the Buddha. I was in the Temple for all 3 days, practicing meditation and the experience was such a gift. The sound is like a slow, quiet murmur, that eventually builds with an intense rythym as each one is saying and reading their part of the text out loud. Then, the cymbals and the drums and horns add to this powerfully prayerful atmosphere. I was raised by Catholic nuns for 12 years and there is much here that reminds me of them and of the feeling I had and loved in my schools - St. Rose of Lima and Notre Dame Academy!
I have had some very sweet moments sitting with the nuns during these cleaning frenzies when we take tea breaks outside, leaning on each other and laughing and making this monastery shine! The nuns share treats that they make in their rooms as well, and last night, I sat on the floor with 4 anis (nuns) who were eating vegetables with the flat bread that Ani Konchok Sangmo made in her room! It was delicious, but the company does give it a flavor that is sweet and loving - a gentle contentment.
I am in the shop here outside of the monastery at Jangchubling which I can walk to through the fields while looking around me to the Himalayan foothills. The paths are rocky and dusty although the other night a wonderful, windy storm blew through quickly at 2 am. I hope one comes again! There are some clouds lingering behind the mountain ridge that could be filled with moisture......?? I only hope!
I will have a little coffee which is made with about a teaspoon of Nescafe instant with milk - made similar to chai. We have tea but I drink very little coffee, but have come to love this treat! By the way, Arun, who owns the shop and works it with his son, Vivek and Sunil his son-in-law ,says he will teach me Hindi now - for only $500 American!
Some monks sit quietly behind me having an alloo parantha and tea (flattened bread with potato).
I will make my way back to Samten Ling and wish each of you Joy. Nellie
Last week, there was a special puja (prayers) where the monks and nuns read all the teachings of the Buddha. I was in the Temple for all 3 days, practicing meditation and the experience was such a gift. The sound is like a slow, quiet murmur, that eventually builds with an intense rythym as each one is saying and reading their part of the text out loud. Then, the cymbals and the drums and horns add to this powerfully prayerful atmosphere. I was raised by Catholic nuns for 12 years and there is much here that reminds me of them and of the feeling I had and loved in my schools - St. Rose of Lima and Notre Dame Academy!
I have had some very sweet moments sitting with the nuns during these cleaning frenzies when we take tea breaks outside, leaning on each other and laughing and making this monastery shine! The nuns share treats that they make in their rooms as well, and last night, I sat on the floor with 4 anis (nuns) who were eating vegetables with the flat bread that Ani Konchok Sangmo made in her room! It was delicious, but the company does give it a flavor that is sweet and loving - a gentle contentment.
I am in the shop here outside of the monastery at Jangchubling which I can walk to through the fields while looking around me to the Himalayan foothills. The paths are rocky and dusty although the other night a wonderful, windy storm blew through quickly at 2 am. I hope one comes again! There are some clouds lingering behind the mountain ridge that could be filled with moisture......?? I only hope!
I will have a little coffee which is made with about a teaspoon of Nescafe instant with milk - made similar to chai. We have tea but I drink very little coffee, but have come to love this treat! By the way, Arun, who owns the shop and works it with his son, Vivek and Sunil his son-in-law ,says he will teach me Hindi now - for only $500 American!
Some monks sit quietly behind me having an alloo parantha and tea (flattened bread with potato).
I will make my way back to Samten Ling and wish each of you Joy. Nellie
Saturday, February 7, 2009
February 6, 2009-- Notes From India
Hello My Friends! Many Blessings to all of you.
I just wanted to pass on to you a few thoughts gathered when I walk up the hill from the nunnery here, to a site that I love on the hill that overlooks this valley. There's a mandir, a small Hindu temple, that isn't used, but that's been built beneath this great Banyan tree. You can see the tree for miles. She sits on the side of the hill in such a way that the leaves and branches have adopted the shape of this steep incline.
Around 4 pm, and after my classes, I love to grab my sneakers and head for the hills alone; well, not quite, for usually a 4 legged friend, one of the nunnery dogs, jumps for joy and heads out the gate ahead of me sniffing and checking out all the news. The trail takes me close to a neighbor's yard and I skirt the stable and the cows and goats and climb higher through the fields below the Shakya retreat grounds and then across to this little path in front of the great banyan. Coming there, I sigh deeply, happy to be able to sit on the cool concrete and hidden underneath the canopy of branches and thick leaves and below me, the valley murmurs and stutters in so many languages - the life of India! You can hear a revival from the Christian Theology College which is next to the Buddhist monastery at Jangchubling! There's a Hindu temple where bajans (chants) are broadcast through a speaker and the cry of the muezzin for Muslim prayers all compete with the drums and cymbals of the nunnery. There are children crying and talking and yelling and bells from cows and goats and the sounds of machete's as many cut limbs for timber for their evening fires. But the sounds seem to be muffled for the distance and the embrace of this tree. I can look to my right and see Mussorie and know that the Himalayas are seen from her pathways just knowing this, I laugh and smile deeply satisfied. And the light filters so gently through the greenery and I am embraced and moved to be here and deeply grateful.
All the sounds to me are prayers - and all the sounds are heard by the same One. They seem to say the same thing and they are all heard. From here, there is no differentiation or argument of who's right or wrong. From here there is just a knowing and a Peace.
There doesn't need to be an explanation for me. I just sit grateful. The Grace that brings me here is a gift that calls me to share by opening my heart to embrace all the sounds, all the beings and all humanity and in moments like this, I am lifted out of the confinement of my own limited body and awareness and like all the sounds, I am lifted to the space of sky itself.
I just rest in this awareness and breathe a prayer of thanks for myself and all others.
Then... Sindoo the dog gets restless, like my mind, and he begins to sniff and distract me and himself , jumping and nipping and together we make our way back down another road. And I pray that all I greet can see in my eyes the language that universally speaks to us all! Nellie
I just wanted to pass on to you a few thoughts gathered when I walk up the hill from the nunnery here, to a site that I love on the hill that overlooks this valley. There's a mandir, a small Hindu temple, that isn't used, but that's been built beneath this great Banyan tree. You can see the tree for miles. She sits on the side of the hill in such a way that the leaves and branches have adopted the shape of this steep incline.
Around 4 pm, and after my classes, I love to grab my sneakers and head for the hills alone; well, not quite, for usually a 4 legged friend, one of the nunnery dogs, jumps for joy and heads out the gate ahead of me sniffing and checking out all the news. The trail takes me close to a neighbor's yard and I skirt the stable and the cows and goats and climb higher through the fields below the Shakya retreat grounds and then across to this little path in front of the great banyan. Coming there, I sigh deeply, happy to be able to sit on the cool concrete and hidden underneath the canopy of branches and thick leaves and below me, the valley murmurs and stutters in so many languages - the life of India! You can hear a revival from the Christian Theology College which is next to the Buddhist monastery at Jangchubling! There's a Hindu temple where bajans (chants) are broadcast through a speaker and the cry of the muezzin for Muslim prayers all compete with the drums and cymbals of the nunnery. There are children crying and talking and yelling and bells from cows and goats and the sounds of machete's as many cut limbs for timber for their evening fires. But the sounds seem to be muffled for the distance and the embrace of this tree. I can look to my right and see Mussorie and know that the Himalayas are seen from her pathways just knowing this, I laugh and smile deeply satisfied. And the light filters so gently through the greenery and I am embraced and moved to be here and deeply grateful.
All the sounds to me are prayers - and all the sounds are heard by the same One. They seem to say the same thing and they are all heard. From here, there is no differentiation or argument of who's right or wrong. From here there is just a knowing and a Peace.
There doesn't need to be an explanation for me. I just sit grateful. The Grace that brings me here is a gift that calls me to share by opening my heart to embrace all the sounds, all the beings and all humanity and in moments like this, I am lifted out of the confinement of my own limited body and awareness and like all the sounds, I am lifted to the space of sky itself.
I just rest in this awareness and breathe a prayer of thanks for myself and all others.
Then... Sindoo the dog gets restless, like my mind, and he begins to sniff and distract me and himself , jumping and nipping and together we make our way back down another road. And I pray that all I greet can see in my eyes the language that universally speaks to us all! Nellie
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
January 21, 2009--USA Inauguration
My Dear Friends, and my Dear Family,
I went downtown today for lunch and there in the restaurant was a T.V. with news in English and the news was all about the United States and the inauguration of Barack Obama. Everywhere I go, Indians will ask me about this election. It's humbling. And being raised Catholic, I remember the verse, "to more that is given, more is expected." I think about this in terms of the destiny of the US. Many, many people would give anything to get a passport or visa to come to America.
I was walking up to the village of Chalgon behind the nunnery a few weeks ago and a young man, maybe 18 years old was walking with his mother or grandmother and just came up to me and said, "I have no money and no papers, but I want to come to the United States. Can you help me?"
But what is it we have? For me, the first word is FREEDOM, which translate into choices. We are a very rich nation (despite the economic downturn) with incredible resources and we have the capacity to make great strides in terms of influencing the world in ways that reflect the beautiful vision of a democracy that was codified in the Constitution and Bill of Rights. And it's simply a matter of what we do with these choices. Simple! hahaha
I was teaching English today to a woman who was born in Tibet (close to Lhasa) around 1972. This very shy woman, begin to tell me of her very political involvement in Tibet against the Chinese and the imprisonment of many of her friends. She told me of the re-education programs in the prisons which begins after a few months or years of beatings. Her uncles spent years imprisoned for being Tibetan and for owning land. She appears to be so passive and quiet and out of her came such a conviction and commitment to do all that she can and hopefully to return to Tibet to help restore the losses for her country and culture. And then, she turns to me and simply said; "America is so great and what happens in America effects the world."
It's very interesting to see the U.S. from here. And to see my life and my home from a foreign perspective.
I myself have a lot of freedom. And this freedom requires a lot of responsibility. I've have had to face a lot of my own choices in my life and this is humbling. I am living in an insulated environment, not able to really talk to anyone at length or in depth due to the language barrier, so I have only my own mind to dialog with! It is my sadhana, my spiritual practice, and why I came to India in the first place. I can see immediately the results or fruit of each thought and action. I can hold it, so to speak and I have to ask in all honesty, what was motivating this? Was I trying just to get what I want? Or am I really thinking of someone else? What do I want from you? What am I asking of you? These are tough questions that require brutal honesty if one wants liberation. For if I am not motivated by Love, the fruit of this is not loving and is simply suffering; for me, for you.
Whatever world I want to see, I am seeing through my thoughts and these are reflected in each and every interaction I have with each and every person I meet. Am I influencing someone with hope or am I hiding fear through a false smile and platitudes? Do I really believe that Peace is possible in this chaos? If so, what am I doing to further this and what actions do I justify that oppose this?
I come from a nation of "can-do" people and feel deep gratitude for these gifts that have given me this foundation. As my Tibetan friend says, "what happens in America effects the world," really translates for me to, "whatever I do effects all beings, without exception, whether I am aware or not." What effect will I have?
That's the question for me.
I shouldn't be as hopeful as I am, given that there was much suffering in my life, but that is the Miracle OF my life. Throughout it all, the deaths, the sadness, the moves, the failed relationships, there has been an undercurrent of deep Faith and great Love. In India, I am finding that this is the ground from which everything is growing and always has been! Throughout it all there have been the Friends and the Family that I have and underlying even our different paths and lives, we are still here, with each other.
These are such important times to practice Peace. These are great times to practice Forgiveness. These are such great times to have Faith and believe, as President Obama has said - in Hope. No matter what we might believe, to have the word HOPE brought back into the vernacular of politics and nations is a great gift. I hope! Blessings, Nellie
I went downtown today for lunch and there in the restaurant was a T.V. with news in English and the news was all about the United States and the inauguration of Barack Obama. Everywhere I go, Indians will ask me about this election. It's humbling. And being raised Catholic, I remember the verse, "to more that is given, more is expected." I think about this in terms of the destiny of the US. Many, many people would give anything to get a passport or visa to come to America.
I was walking up to the village of Chalgon behind the nunnery a few weeks ago and a young man, maybe 18 years old was walking with his mother or grandmother and just came up to me and said, "I have no money and no papers, but I want to come to the United States. Can you help me?"
But what is it we have? For me, the first word is FREEDOM, which translate into choices. We are a very rich nation (despite the economic downturn) with incredible resources and we have the capacity to make great strides in terms of influencing the world in ways that reflect the beautiful vision of a democracy that was codified in the Constitution and Bill of Rights. And it's simply a matter of what we do with these choices. Simple! hahaha
I was teaching English today to a woman who was born in Tibet (close to Lhasa) around 1972. This very shy woman, begin to tell me of her very political involvement in Tibet against the Chinese and the imprisonment of many of her friends. She told me of the re-education programs in the prisons which begins after a few months or years of beatings. Her uncles spent years imprisoned for being Tibetan and for owning land. She appears to be so passive and quiet and out of her came such a conviction and commitment to do all that she can and hopefully to return to Tibet to help restore the losses for her country and culture. And then, she turns to me and simply said; "America is so great and what happens in America effects the world."
It's very interesting to see the U.S. from here. And to see my life and my home from a foreign perspective.
I myself have a lot of freedom. And this freedom requires a lot of responsibility. I've have had to face a lot of my own choices in my life and this is humbling. I am living in an insulated environment, not able to really talk to anyone at length or in depth due to the language barrier, so I have only my own mind to dialog with! It is my sadhana, my spiritual practice, and why I came to India in the first place. I can see immediately the results or fruit of each thought and action. I can hold it, so to speak and I have to ask in all honesty, what was motivating this? Was I trying just to get what I want? Or am I really thinking of someone else? What do I want from you? What am I asking of you? These are tough questions that require brutal honesty if one wants liberation. For if I am not motivated by Love, the fruit of this is not loving and is simply suffering; for me, for you.
Whatever world I want to see, I am seeing through my thoughts and these are reflected in each and every interaction I have with each and every person I meet. Am I influencing someone with hope or am I hiding fear through a false smile and platitudes? Do I really believe that Peace is possible in this chaos? If so, what am I doing to further this and what actions do I justify that oppose this?
I come from a nation of "can-do" people and feel deep gratitude for these gifts that have given me this foundation. As my Tibetan friend says, "what happens in America effects the world," really translates for me to, "whatever I do effects all beings, without exception, whether I am aware or not." What effect will I have?
That's the question for me.
I shouldn't be as hopeful as I am, given that there was much suffering in my life, but that is the Miracle OF my life. Throughout it all, the deaths, the sadness, the moves, the failed relationships, there has been an undercurrent of deep Faith and great Love. In India, I am finding that this is the ground from which everything is growing and always has been! Throughout it all there have been the Friends and the Family that I have and underlying even our different paths and lives, we are still here, with each other.
These are such important times to practice Peace. These are great times to practice Forgiveness. These are such great times to have Faith and believe, as President Obama has said - in Hope. No matter what we might believe, to have the word HOPE brought back into the vernacular of politics and nations is a great gift. I hope! Blessings, Nellie
Friday, January 2, 2009
January 2, 2009- Email Still Down
Dear Friends,
The internet is down at the shop I go to and I took a break from email to meditate a lot etc. Today begins a workshop for nuns and Tenzin Palmo is the main speaker - she's the nun in the book the Cave in the Snow - I had breakfast with her and her nuns (she's British but has been in India for decades) and she is so powerful. Her talk today was on the male domination in Buddhist tradition to encourage the nuns to build inner strength - it was WOW and I speak tomorrow!
The internet is down at the shop I go to and I took a break from email to meditate a lot etc. Today begins a workshop for nuns and Tenzin Palmo is the main speaker - she's the nun in the book the Cave in the Snow - I had breakfast with her and her nuns (she's British but has been in India for decades) and she is so powerful. Her talk today was on the male domination in Buddhist tradition to encourage the nuns to build inner strength - it was WOW and I speak tomorrow!
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